Here I sit
A surgical waiting room
My husband's having foot surgery today
His ankle has fallen and it can't get up
Sorry...a bit of humor to calm the nerves
and...I don't mean to make light of the situation
In reality, it has fallen as a result of an extra bone and a torn tendon and he has not been able to walk without pain and a limp in a very long time
So here we are...
he behind the door...
"Authorized Personnel Only"
and I in the waiting room...filled with unfamiliar faces...a blaring TV
on the other side of the door
While I wait...
An anesthesiologist monitors his vitals while keeping him sedated
Mr. SSS...oblivious to the pain that his body is enduring
incisions being made
colleagues being consulted
bones being fused
plates, screws, stitches
while I sit in the waiting room
waiting to hear that he's okay
what choices were made by the physician for him to once again be able to walk without pain
Is this how it is with God?
He with me
The Great Physician
Behind the invisible door
I in the waiting room
I can't see Him
but He's there
Authorized by me to perform whatever type of surgery necessary
to make me His
whatever it takes
Incisions, fusions, stitches, anesthesia
decisions as to what would be best...
filtered through His fingers of love
to make me be able
all He made me to be
Will I authorize Him to make whatever decisions necessary for my life, no matter how bad it hurts to make me into the person He intended me to be? To fulfill a Greater Plan. To fuse together circumstances that, in the end, will make me be able to walk without a limp. And stitch together the hurts and sadness necessary for wholeness to return and His will to be done.
The door opens...
surgery is done
He's in recovery...did well...not as bad as they first thought
no pins, screws or plates
many incisions, stitches and
there will be pain
6-8 week recovery
a smile and a hug from the physician
"call me if you need anything"
"the pain will all be worth it"
Words to remember
I will call on my Great Physician when I need anything...
because the pain will all be worth it